the sun is out

burning holes into my retinas

and i finally feel like i can see you.

i cut today.

i'm at the end of my line.

i'm tired of being sick.


mentally.
and
physically.

CVS is making my life suck.

I have zero quality of life.

I go to work so I can live,

I don't live so I can work.

Some people don't get that.

The death of me that has been 

stuck inside my skull for years

is slowly working its way to the 

outside...

it's overpowering and i feel

like i'm totally losing myself

which is weird because i lost 

myself a long time ago.

i need help. 

In a far, far away land...

This is horse shit!

The End.

I like to pretend that I'm gansta.

money ain't a thang.

i think there's 

little tiny horses trying to 

push their way through 

the vertebrae in my back...

i wish they would stop.

i use birth control

as a book mark.

I have the urge to stick

band-aids all over my body.

and be very serious about it.

I saw the "easter bunny"

smashed on the side of the road

yesterday.

I secretly smiled to myself.

Then I felt like shit.

side note: happy easter.

It's raining...

is He crying for us?

maybe.

Tomorrow, He will rise.

i love him,

i do.

I had a dream.

I was in severe pain

and bleeding

heart pounding

sweat pouring

screams so loud they pierce the air

"please don't do it again"

but still, it was a dream.

Then I wake...

and it becomes reality.

"Do you believe in God?", he asked...

as he pulled the trigger...

you walk past me,

eye's locked.

you whisper, "cute"

instantly, i want to throw up...

I didn't feel like shaving...

so throw on some knee highs and roll....

I see you everyday, almost.

I have a weird feeling.

I shouldn't.

You seem to "get" me.

I like that. 

Maybe too much...

Someday, you will fail.